這個星期

這個星期是個劇烈的改變
真的發生很多事
上班的事、電話的事、搬家的事、還有那封午夜一點點進去
看完卻只能流淚到三點的e mail
加起來 我覺得這些事無比巨大
(這時候是人都會說 這些之後回頭看都沒什麼，都是過程)

該死的過程

三點睡七點起床 重覆累得賊死的一天之後
在心裡說今天回家一定要十點睡
然後繼續三點睡七點起床…
下班後一路上想著回到家還有很多事要做
到家後我卻只想邊吃飯邊看康熙來了
幸好這兩天都很好看
看完康熙來了 做一些事，但事情還沒做幾樣，就過了十二點了
為什麼米歇兒說上班會胖
我連續三天都沒吃早餐和午餐
會瘦吧…

這三天雖然糟 但是電梯壞掉時
有一個超級cute guy問我要不要一起爬樓梯
害我心跳得好快
(是因為太久沒運動 爬六樓太喘吧…)
但是在搞砸一堆事之後 我心裡只有出現Daniel Powter的Bad Day
覺得又是糟糕的一天
我好想變成那種什麼事都能輕鬆應付不慌不忙不抱怨有效率的人
(不要懷疑 世上真的有這種人)
但是每天我都只能跟自已說
不要覺得有壓力 不要覺得不夠好 不要覺得搞砸了
不要有挫折感 不要想人家會怎麼想
我只能把這些感覺一件一件往肚裡吞
(注意哦 這時候就要說撐過了就是妳的)
歐陽也說 這跟妳之前熱舞社的時候一樣啊 妳一定可以再來一次
我說那是年輕時的衝勁…

偏偏我都愛選一些怪路
如果搬家之後真的如大家所料的…
是不是只能再拿出那句老話來逼自己「因為是自己選的不能叫苦」
這幾天回想起酪梨壽司的日誌
只是兩年前是坐在電腦前看
兩年後是自己在經歷同樣的事
不過我沒有她那麼厲害
她的文章只是被主管改一兩個字…我的…
(她的 苦哈哈 實習 紀錄)
之前看她的網誌時 也會想 如果是發生在我身上的話我會怎麼辦
不過做心理準備也沒什麼用 遇到同樣情形
還是同樣的沮喪 沒有因為「已知它會發生」而轄免了什麼

最後就讓我來破本網誌目前文章最長的紀錄吧
Daniel Powter - Bad Day
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't knowYou tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad dayThe camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't knowYou tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad dayYou've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day